LG when you have God

I spent a lot of today thinking about this blog and what I've been doing with it.

Conclusion? I've been doing nothing but complain about how my life sucksz like hell. And well, that clearly shouldn't have been the case at all. For the past few days, I've been thinking about the state of my spiritual life.

Stagnated. I feel stagnated.

I need to rediscover God's purpose for me (in RJ and in life). I need direction. So I decided that I'm going to do something about it. Namely, The Purpose Driven Life book that is still incomplete from the last time. I'm going to start from day one and I will make sure I finish it this time. Because this time, I'm more determined and more motivated. I'm not going to waste the second half of 2009. No way.

And well, I'm going to post up my daily learnings whenever I can. I think it's better than posting up stupid paragraphs on how RJ sucks or me being emobeemo.

People are going to judge you by what you write whether you know it or not. It's time to start obeying and behaving myself.

Anyway, on to other matters, today I tell you, I feel so encouraged. I got a text about my religion from my classmate. I'm not going to put it up here because it's private and well, personal life stays personal and away from the world wide web. But, I tell you, I really feel so encouraged by his text. To have a non-christian encourage you on your christian walk shows just how much God can use your life as a living testimony even if you've been screwing up your life for 90% of the time. He turns all bad things to good.

You know, God is really really good. He has placed people around me to encourage me when I've made up my decision about things. He sends people to affirm me, to show that you know, he has got my back in whatever i'm going to go through.

I'm really thankful I have such an amazing God.

He's always been there.

When you seek God with a sincere heart that's crying out for a touch from him, He answers you.

Today, I was feeling really insecure about friends, relationships, school, church. I think more so after heated GP discussions (heh). Coming to JC, I don't think I've ever met such a huge amount of people so turned off by Christianity. But God has certainly opened my eyes.

I'll admit, I haven't really been a good girl. I keep putting off QT and in the end, I get too tired to do it. It's not right. I'm gonna try harder this week though. I'm gonna put in more effort into my relationship with God. I'm sick of feeling so conformed to the world. I need to go back to that place that's just God and I.

As I was praying for myself today. I asked God to help me. To help me bring him into focus every single day as I go out and face the world. In all honesty, I'm really sick of hearing words like 'Shit', 'Damn', 'Hell' and a whole assorted vulgar words coming out from my mouth. And I asked God to give me strength. I asked him to give me more tact. To think before I speak. After the prayer, cell lesson was going to start. But just before that, Nicole (Liang) shared a verse that answered my prayer on the spot.

James 1:19-27.

It's a long drawn out passage so I won't type it here. But you know, God really answers your prayers when you're desperate enough. And I think this is the turning point in this seemingly bottomless pit I feel like I'm free falling in. Right now, I'm in a hot air balloon, on a one way ticket out of this pit hole.

God's amazing.

ABC, it's easy as 123

This is so hilariously stupid and funny and nice and ttly awsum.
Listening to him turns my bad day around.

iluvmj.

update

like woah?
I just packed my table from the many worksheets that have been piling up since school started in february.
Now I can see what colour the wood of my table is.

HAHA.

life's been unhappening.
school tomorrow.

Bye world.

SO THIS IS HOW LOVE FEELS LIKE