when it's all been said and done

Talking about my feelings has never been my forte.

For the past 3 weeks, I've probably experienced the most number of feelings ever in my entire life (to date). It is exhausting. I still am. I'm glad yet sad everything is over and done with now. And it really amazes me to see how God really can provide for us when we are working with accordance to his will.

But yet, at the end of everything, what's left me feeling even more tired and conflicted than I already am happens to be a person.

I just don't understand. I feel like a person that's only your friend when you feel like there's no other friends you have around. I'm just the lifebuoy. It's sickening to feel so conflicted within myself. I can't decide whether or not I mean anything to you as a friend.

Sarcasm 101

I am just so bright and perky.
Awsum days, rly.
Awsum days.

And wow, there's more awsum days ahead!

why does it feel like it's raining in my head,

I don't understand.

I hate xanga because they don't let me password protect my posts. ):
Maybe I should consider moving.
But my xanga is so pretty.

Dilemma, dilemma.

Today was a bad day and I need someone to talk to.
My mood ring is purple.
I think I should consider getting a refund.

Finding the tangible in intangible

Suddenly it's the holidays and there's a whole wad of free time to come blog. I find that I'm really not good with words. I've been staring at this screen for the past 15 minutes trying to pen my feelings down into words before giving up. Maybe there are too many feelings or maybe there aren't any.

Yea, well, I'm going to sleep.

Once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance

Haven't been here in 4872894789237483728947 million years!

Well, the holidayzzzz are here! (And as all holidays goes, they're not rly holidays) It's gna be jam-packed with lots of exciting stuff and of course the dreaded studying. O:

On the side note, I am a year closer to leaving RJ. The feeling of liberation. No words can describe it. I should be thankful I got in but I can't find it in my heart to feel it given the circumstances.

New year, new beginnings.

What happened this year, STAYS IN THIS YEAR. (if you didn't get it, it means forgotten and never to see the light of day ever again. yes, because that's how selfish I am.)

Haha, I'm in a bad mood so I should leave like maybe now. Fb games here I come.